“There’s nothing new under the sun.” Mama Helen used to say that to me all the time when I was growing up. That and “what goes around, comes around.” It wasn’t until I got older that I realized the saying was part of a Bible verse. It wasn’t until I got much older that I realized it was true – whether it came from the Bible or from my mom, it was true.
I distinctly remember when 1970’s platform shoes and fashion came back into fashion. It was when Little Helen was in high school so it really felt like déjà vu all over again! Made me wish I’d saved some of the stuff I had back in the day. But I digress.
Lately as I’ve been up, down, and all around with lack of progress on the weight loss front, I’ve been doing some serious soul searching. As I said before, while I have come leaps and bounds in loving me for who I am and not what I weigh, I still want to weigh less.
This deep thinking was brought on by looking though old photos of myself and realizing that I have been extremely hard on myself for most of my life and that 25 pounds ago, I looked pretty damn good. That realization is what led me to say in last Friday’s post that
Looking at those photos got me to thinking about what I did, both pre-thyroid, and the one period of time post thyroid in 2007-08 where I had some success. It’s said that if you want to be successful, you should repeat patterns where you had previously been successful. As I looked at these photos I realized that ‘my’ past success was not in strict dieting or calorie counting, it was in eating real food in smaller portions.
Strict dieting is the crazy land where my head wants to go hoping for a quick fix. I’m not a binger per se, nor do I have issues with any foods – other than the issue that I dislike liver and lima beans - but the fastest way for me to overeat is to constantly deny myself. So in looking for that middle road, I realized that in my past successes, I didn’t go for a quick fix. I simply knew I needed to reduce in order to reduce.
For me it’s quite simple. Eat whatever I want, but in smaller portions. What I’ve come up with is to set up some rough guidelines on how much protein, starches, fats, fruits, vegetables, dairy and extras I really need in a day. I have no idea how many calories I’m eating at all. It’s a thinking pattern that makes me look at food and think, “eat less.” For example, I ‘want’ 2 scoops of ice cream. But I also want to lose some weight. Therefore, I will have 1 scoop of ice cream today. It also makes me evaluate my overall eating pattern. If I eat a couple of eggs for breakfast and a 4 oz. chicken breast for lunch, I do not need to eat a 16 oz. porterhouse for dinner. If I really want the porterhouse, then I have a little.
I’m going on my third week of eating like this and dare I say that I felt a looseness in some slacks that 3 weeks ago were uncomfortably tight? I will admit to you that I was pretty hungry for about 4 days. This only makes sense. After all, I had been eating more even while calorie counting. That hunger has subsided now and I’m experiencing what I call ‘normal’ hunger, i.e., if I haven’t eaten in a while, I get hungry – or maybe if a previous meal was more filling, I’m not hungry for quite some time. Either way, in the long run, I have to trust the process. Experience shows me that in the past, this has been a path to success.
So what is old is new again. What I’ve done, I’m doing again. I hope in the process that I will be new again too.