Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Feeeeeeeelings, Wo Wo Wo Feeeeeeeelings....

I keep seeing great positive affirmations all over blogland due to Marissa.   I want to participate but all week I've been struggling with being positive.  Don't get me wrong, I have much to be thankful for but these days it's as if I can't see the forest for the trees.  I'm feeling like we (Mr. Helen and I) can't catch a break on anything.  I also feel like we are long overdue for a stretch of peace and quiet and everyday ordinary living.

I haven't written a post like this in a good long while.  But I started this blog as a place for me to write out anything I want to.  It's where I'm supposed to be able to go to say anything I want.  So, followers or not, that's what I'm doing today.  Today, because I can't seem to work through it mentally, this is for me.

Today I Feel:
  • Frustrated
  • Tired
  • Stressed
  • Heavy
  • Sore
  • Achey
  • Sad
  • Unloved
  • Discouraged
  • Unworthy
  • Frumpy
  • Homely
  • Unathletic
  • Overwhelmed
Oh, and did I mention stressed and tired AND sick and tired of being sick and tired? 

I know that much of this is factual and not just feelings -  genuine to where our life is right now.  Even if I used all the deep breathing and calming techniques available, the fact remains that life is quite stressful these days.  I know this because I do work at getting plenty of sleep:  7-8 hours a night and yet I wake up feeling tired and exhausted.  This morning as I ran I kept thinking that I need to find some sort of homeopathic remedy for energy but even as I thought that, I knew in my heart that there is no magic pill. I need to rid myself of these feelings because this sort of thing is toxic and not good for much of anything.  Maybe putting it out there is a start.

19 comments:

  1. It's hard when time are tough and emotions get the best of you. But one thing I took notice of, is that you still ran this morning.

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  2. :( Sorry, sweet Helen. I can tell you right off that you are loved, you are worthy, you are athletic (you amaze me), and you so pretty. I guess we all tend to have times of feeling down. Wish I was there to give you a hug.

    I think you and Mr Helen need a nice romatic weekend away!

    PS: It's still Kelly and Google hates me so I can't sign in.

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  3. No, there is no magic pill, but I am here, still waving the homeopathy/naturopathy flag.

    Everything you wrote in this post?? It's EXACTLY how I felt back in 2009...the pain, the frustration, the guilt...feeling like I was just a pathetic loser, that it was all my fault...a character defect. Fact is, my body was so out of balance and fighting Lyme and some other stuff.

    I urge you to go see Dr. Groves (860-448-2225). She takes insurance. And you will really like her...I can't say enough!!

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  4. I would venture to guess that the last one is the real culprit. Overwhelmed tends to overshadow everything else, you know?

    Some days just plain suck. Some weeks do too. But nothing is permanent - including these feeeeelings.

    Hugs (and positive affirmations) to you, Helen.

    PS - No one else but you believes any of those things you wrote.

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  5. It's funny, because any time any of us (bloggers) writes a post like yours, we always apologize for putting it out there - but it's our personal blog, and you are correct - we write first for ourselves. So I'm glad you wrote this. But I'm sad that you're feeling so...everything. Hugs, and you know where to reach me.

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  6. I understand these feelings. As I read through your list, I stopped at "unloved". Then I saw "unworthy", "frumpy", "homely" and "unathletic". My immediate thought "What is she talking about?!".

    Even though you may "feel" these things. They are NOT real. First of all, I've been reading your blog for a very long time and I know how Mr. Helen feels about you. He practically worships the ground you walk on. He-LOVES-YOU.

    Then there's Little Helen. She adores you too. Of course there's all of us out here, we all love you. I know I do. :)

    Unworthy? Hardly. You're a wonderful, sweet person, smart beautiful-inside-and-out, and you're worthy of the very best in life.

    Frumpy and Homely? Oh my gosh Helen! What's wrong with you. LOL Have you looked in the mirror lately. You're gorgeous and very stylish. You're the furthest thing from frumpy or homely. You're strikingly beautiful.

    Lastly, unathletic? Lady, you ARE a RUNNER. I wish I had your enthusiasm and ability to run. You post about it all the time. Plus, what about your Thai Boxing? You're not exactly a couch potato. In fact, when I think of all the blogs I read, I think of you as one of the top most athletic gals I know.

    Take care. Be kinder to yourself. :)

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  7. I am so sorry you are having a hard time. Shoot me an email if you want to "talk". I have a non-homeopathic pill called Prozac, just saying.

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  8. "I know that much of this is factual and not just feelings - genuine to where our life is right now. "

    You know, sometimes we just need to roll around in the muck for a bit. It always feels so good to come out on the other side.

    If you ever need an ear, just let me know.

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  9. I have felt the same way, and I'm sure you have in the past, too. You will feel better, and you know you'll feel better. Whether this is a short-term thing or a long-term thing, get the help where you can - family, friends, and here in blogworld.

    Hugs to you, Helen!

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  10. You've really been having it rough, Helen, and your posts about your father-&-mother-in-law made my heart ache.

    Huge {{{HUGS}}} to you.

    It WILL get better. I say this not because I'm there (at the better) but because I BELIEVE it.

    (PS. Have you ever played around with the primal blueprint way of eating? Discovered it over at Mark's Daily Apple, and it's made me think. Especially as living lower-carb-higher-protein for just ONE day got rid of my 'heavy' feeling ... and my tummy slimmed right down. Will post in more detail soon.)

    Perhaps the only thing needed right now is that you love yourself, the way you'd love a little girl. We do too little of that.

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  11. First of all it's your blog and you can write on it what you want. I'd rather see a post like this than you telling us everything is fine. This is an honest post which I appreciate.

    You have so much emotions to deal with now, it's completely clear that you are so tired.

    It will get better, it always does. I wish I could tell you when but I can't. But I do know one day the sun shines again for you and Mr. Helen. Keep that thought in mind and you will get through this.

    For now know that you'll be in my heart and I'm thinking of you and try to send positive things your way.

    Love Fran!

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  12. I wish I was there to give you a big hug, but you'll just have to take a virtual one, okay? Like Fran and all the others, I am sending my positive vibes to you!

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  13. Hang in there Helen! And be kind to yourself, you have ALOT on the go at the moment, so times of feeling overwhelmed are COMPLETELY understandable!!! Sending a big e-hug your way!!!!!!

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  14. Sorry you feel like this today but I totally get it. We all have times like that. Sometimes it feels good to spew it out like that and move on!

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  15. Aw Helen! I want to come to your house and give you a great big hug!!

    It's hard to get out a funk when you are feeling down. I hope you are feeling better today!

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  16. These are the reminders that life is just plain hard; sometimes, too hard. That's when these emotions come rolling out and boy, when one starts, it's easy to get overwhelmed.
    I'm sorry for your overall yucky feeling, Helen. I think Lori is right; sometimes just getting it out and sitting in it for a bit is a good thing. Gives you time to think, and then get up, shake yourself off and keep on keeping on.

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  17. xoxoxo
    for me putting it out there really always is a start.
    how are you today??

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  18. I think it's important to own our negative feelings just as much as our positive ones. Pretending they don't exist only makes them worse. So get it out in the light of day, lay it all bare, and then move on. It's much easier to do that way than keeping it bottled up.

    Hang in there. Your beach vacation awaits!

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