The issue is that the impatience can make it near to impossible to get there. For example on that same day prior to that conversation I was 'feeling' fat. The feeling was completely ridiculous because I was wearing the very outfit that I wore on the plane to St. Martin. That means that my weight hasn't changed enough to make a difference in my clothing yet when I went to St. Martin I felt terrific and proud and that Friday I felt 'fat.'
On Saturday morning, I came across a blog of someone who is feeling that same impatience. Interesting to me because Karen and I do not approach weight loss in the same way. She has worked very hard at NOT dieting and being an intuitive eater. Good for her. And yet, here we are, a dieter and an intuitive eater having the same feelings.
If you read that blog, you'll see that my comment to her was that I know it's important to treat our bodies with kindness as we go through the process. I feel that way because I don't think it matters how you are getting to your happy weight, I truly believe you will get there faster if you are kind to yourself.
As I further thought about Karen's post and the conversation I had on Friday night I had sort of an *a-ha* moment. Not only does this while process require patience, it requires consistency. Unfortunately, whether one is eating intuitively or following a structured diet plan, or even trying to maintain the weight loss achieved, you have to do it consistently, day in and day out. And,
At this moment in my weight loss process, it's not just all the extra events that come this time of year, it's also what I call diet 'fatigue.' I've mentioned it before: while I'm not truly happy where I am, I am happy 'enough.' I'm able to wear some really pretty clothing and most of the time (Friday excepted) I like the way I look and feel. While I feel so much better when I weigh less than I do now, the fact that I feel 'good enough' makes it easy for me to justify the extra handful of this or that, the extra bite of this or that, or the extra drink of this or that. This behavior, of course, is the opposite of consistency, unless I am consistently trying to gain weight.
So now that I've had these moments of clarity, the real trick is going to be to put the thoughts into action. I know I'm capable, but can I? Will I? I'm not actually sure what I'm going to do to be quite honest.