Friday I kept feeling a tickle in my throat. Over the day at the Big E, I got raspier and raspier and it felt like it landed in my chest with a thud. I have been having some issues with the very high weed pollen we have right now so I'm not sure if it's allergies or if I'm developing bronchitis. In either case, is it okay for me to feel frustrated? I just want to feel better and be able to have my life back!!
It seems neither the foot shots or Allegra are magic pills.
Last week, I spent the week just trying to eat healthfully, but eat exactly what I wanted in smaller portions. I pretty much kept myself from overeating by promising myself that I could eat anything I wanted at the Big E. One day I was really hungry - stomach growling hungry - so I decided to have an apple with peanut butter even though mentally I thought I'd had enough food. After I ate it, my mind sort of went to the dark side where I started feeling that I shouldn't have eaten it because it probably was too many calories total for the day. My exercise last week was so limited due to my foot swelling and hurting that I was already feeling that I shouldn't even legitimately feel hunger. I wanted to catch that downward spiral so I decided to track what I'd eaten for the day and see just how "bad" I'd been. Imagine my surprise when my total caloric intake was 1543. While that might be a bit high considering my exercise issues, it certainly was not the thousands of calories I thought I'd been consuming. So each day, at the end of the day, I tracked what I ate prior to going to bed. I consistently stayed between 1400-1600 calories. I'm happy with that and even happier to know that I do know what and how much to eat. I'm continuing with that this week and using Lori's suggestion of building in a treat every 3-4 days as that seems to be when I want to dive off the deep end and eat senselessly. But treat will mean that my calories will be more towards 1600 - again not thousands of extra calories.
I have to admit, I wish there was a magic pill for all this but I guess it's just going to take diligence in eating healthfully day in and day out.
No magic pills here either - just some hard work ahead of me to get my speed back. But all in all, it's a good start.