Thursday, October 8, 2015

Meandering

I've been down for the count for the last week.  I worked last Wednesday at the mall and Friday morning woke up feeling "off."  Couldn't put my finger on anything in particular, just didn't feel right.  Saturday morning I woke up with a burning throat and bad post nasal drip and by Sunday I had a full blown head cold.  Whenever I get a cold I always hope it won't go into my chest as I'm so prone to bronchitis.  Thankfully that hasn't happened yet, but I have had a cough that won't let up and therefore is keeping me up at night.  I've literally been dragging myself through this week.  Probably should have taken some time off from at least one of the jobs but it wasn't in the cards.

Mild daytime temps followed by pretty cool nights have stuck around this week and the foliage is starting to turn.  Not sure we're going to have a typical foliage season but there are some pretty spots.  I have to work a breast cancer fundraiser at the mall on Saturday, but hoping that Mr. Helen and I can get out for a foliage drive and apple cider donut on the 17th.

Forecast for the first frost is up for this weekend, though I would be surprised if it happens at the shoreline. We are always milder than inland.  I still have my summer flowers out on the patio and plan to let the frost kill them.  They're still blooming a bit so I figure I'd get my money's worth!

I got my fall/winter things out and happily, the things I was wearing last year, fit this year.  But I need some new things to fill in my wardrobe, especially for work.  That always fills me with a sense of dread.  I just do not enjoy shopping for clothes in the size I am right now.  I just don't.  So, I've been putting it off but eventually I'm going to have to give up and go buy some black slacks.

Because I've been sick I haven't been eating very much and of course in my mind I wish that would lead to the elusive weight loss I've been looking for.  I doubt it though because I'm pretty sure my metabolism is slowed while my body fights this cold.

I know a lot of folks who read and comment on this blog read many of the same blogs I do, but if by chance you haven't read Debby's Chit Chat and Continuing the Conversation posts, you should do so. Some really interesting thoughts from a smart lady who lost and lot of weight and it trying to maintain that weight loss.

One thing I know for sure is that even excluding thyroid issues, my age and place in life are affecting my food consumption.  In other words, I just can't eat the same portions I used to, as well as not being able to even eat some of the foods I used to.  All of it just affects me differently now.  Don't get me wrong, I'm no angel and sometimes I barrel right on past the "full" cues simply because I like the taste of something or I'm having a food tantrum - "I want it!  I don't care, I'm eating it!"

I don't know why these types of things bother me so much but I feel like I go through this sort of self examination with each change of season.  Maybe that's how it's supposed to be?  In any case, I've been working on keeping my mind and thoughts on higher things in order not to go down the rabbit hole.

Buddha said, "All that we are is the result of what we have thought.  The mind is everything.  What we think, we become."

I think this is where working on having positive instead of negative thoughts comes into play - and that is for everything in our lives.  I read something recently where a person was complaining about a household repair and they said it in front of someone who had come up from literally nothing.  That person was surprised because their thought pattern was, "I get to clean my house! I get to fix my toilet! I get to pay a mortgage!"

Interesting perspective and one I'm working on.  I'm trying to make the thoughts my mind are consumed with mostly positive ones. What are you consumed with these days?




12 comments:

  1. Okay, I am totally going to steal the food tantrum bit! I am like you though, with each changing season, especially this year for me, I find myself doing far more self reflection than I probably ever have.

    Maybe one day you and I will figure it out! Have you decided how long you'll keep the second job?

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    1. Food Tantrum (copyright) LOL! Seriously that's what it is when I'm being like that and that's what I've always called it.

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  2. I'm glad my friend's attitude about getting to do things resonated with you - I was just thinking about him as I "got to" vacuum and mop allllll my floors the other day. Perspective is a good thing.

    Hope you're starting to feel better - and yes, by all means, let's avoid that bronchitis!

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    1. Oh dear Shelly! The one place I didn't look to see where I'd read that was your blog. But yes, it definitely resonated with me.

      I made it through the entire day at work without any coughing jags so yay for that!

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  3. Yes, I think you need to copyright food tantrum! A perfect description. I had a mini-tantrum tonight. Made pizza, conservatively, and it came out to 200 cal/slice. I was trying to tell myself to make a salad and have one slice. The thing is, a good salad comes out to about 200 calories. So I had a food tantrum, and had two slices of pizza. It had a lot of vegetables on it :)

    Anyway, thanks for the mention. If people look at those posts, they need to read the comments. There is more good information in the comments than in the posts!

    It sounds like you are actually having a nice fall. Try to enjoy the present moments without thinking about what's coming. Have you ever taken a vacation mid-winter? Seems like that would be something for you to look forward to, to take a little edge off the winter blues.

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    1. We ARE having a very nice fall. And yes, I've done the mid-winter vacation. Just made me bitter when I had to come back to the cold. Late spring works better for me because while it's still cool, there is hope that warmth is coming.

      I have found that pizza, pretty much no matter what you do is a food that is going to be 200-250 calories a slice. It's a food that I either eat during treat meals, or one where I plan for the two slices because I know I'm gonna want 2 lol!

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  4. I love Autumn because of all the colors!

    I used to dislike shopping for the size I have now but since this year I don't care anymore. I used to buy sometimes clothes that didn't fit right because I bought a smaller size. Recently I bought a new outfit in the size I have now and I felt great in it. Size is just a number, it's how you feel in it.

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    1. I'm referring more to "my" size than the size of the clothes. I agree, shopping for and wearing the correct size of clothing is the best and kindest thing you can do for yourself - no matter what your size is!

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  5. I get the food tantrum. I have them! It's so, so frustrating to not be able to eat what I used to eat portion size and *not* lose weight. Sometimes that makes me say to hell with it and just eat. Which then results in a gain. John was remarking about how much less food I have to eat if I want to lose weight and he felt bad for me. I don't know as that made me feel better, but at least it made me realize I wasn't imagining it.

    So sorry you are feeling sick. Get as much rest as you can and do a little pampering for yourself this weekend.

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    1. Today is day 7 and I'm actually feeling better! Slept really good last night and don't even remember waking from coughing. But I have seriously been looking foward to today because it means for the next two days I can sleep with no alarm going off.

      "Sometimes that makes me say to hell with it and just eat. Which then results in a gain." STORY OF MY LIFE.

      And why is the gain so much harder to get rid of than to gain the gain?

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  6. Hope you are feeling better!!!

    The new season is a perfect reason to reevaluate and change what needs changed and to celebrate what's working!

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  7. I adore you and I love that you share your thoughts on this. I think you have done an amazing job.

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