Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Weight, Food, Calories and Such

For every food theory, for every dieting style, for every exercise plan, there is most certainly a counter to each.  I feel like in my lifetime of eating, dieting and exercising, I have tried everything and tried every which way but loose.

Over the past 12 years since my thyroid diagnosis, though I've stayed fairly consistent with exercise, I've struggled to figure out what was going to "work" food and eating-wise. Honestly, a lot of the new things I've tried have come in these last 12 years.  Prior to that, I really had only been on one major "diet"  and that was weight watchers in the 1990's after I had gained 60 lbs. following quitting smoking.  Other than that, if I wanted to take off a few lbs. I'd just cut back or if I wanted to do something drastic, I'd do the cabbage soup or 2 shakes and a meal for 3  or so days. As I look back through my thyroid fog, I now see those as the good old days.

When my thyroid went wonky and nothing worked (long term anyway, several things have worked very short term before my weight inexplicably goes back up), I sort of settled into this eating plan of 1500 calories a day.  I've done that for so many years that I pretty much don't even need to track food and can keep a semi-conscious running tally in my head. Meaning that pretty much, for the last 10+ years I've eaten 1500 calories a day 90% of the time - without losing weight.

The owner of the training facility I joined, and who is working with me to see if we can get my metabolism going, has a theory that because I've eaten that same amount for so long, my body has adapted and now thinks it's in maintenance, even though according to my current body weight combined with calories in and calories out, I should be losing.

He wants to try some regulated calorie cycling, along with setting the macros, i.e. protein/carbohydrates/fats at certain levels.  We have sort of been experimenting with this the last few weeks just to see if I could handle it as I really, REALLY, don't like tracking my food.  Much to my surprise, it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be on most days.  So I know it's doable.

Where I'm having trouble though is due to Mr. Helen's retirement, believe it or not.  It's the craziest thing because we've waited nearly 30 years for him to have weekends off and now that he does, it's proving a challenge - at least to my eating plan.  Most of the issues are coming because he keeps wanting to go away for long weekends, which means I'm totally out of my comfort zone in terms of food since that usually requires a bit of eating out.  The other thing is that he's daring to cook!  Which I love because it frees some time up for me, but that can also be challenging, especially when I don't want to come across as controlling and I just want to let him participate in the life of our household.

When I sort of mentioned this to the nutritionist at the gym she said, "When you find yourself at various social events, eating out. traveling, etc. you  can't go wrong if you always choose a protein and vegetables."  Ummmmm, okay.  Except that's not realistic, what's always going to happen, and certainly not living life in my opinion.  Perfect example:  last night I got home and Mr. Helen had made steak sandwiches for dinner.  I suppose I could have just piled the shaved steak on my plate and eaten the salad, but in reality, I wanted the roll.  (It so happens having the roll worked perfectly with my macros but that's not always the case either.)

In any case, I have been feeling like I can't get a good roll (haha) going with just doing the food plan with the macros and so I've rescheduled my followup with my trainer a couple times. Last night, I got caught.

I was literally laying on the floor, weights in hand doing single arm presses when I felt like someone was staring at me.  I glanced over and there was my trainer.  He told me to finish my set and then we chatted for a few minutes.  He wanted to know why I had changed our appointment twice so I explained. He looked right at me and said, "You've got to be kidding.  Helen, what I want for you is to find the groove that lets you enjoy your life.  You've happened to move into a different stage of life and start this new attempt at health and fitness at the same time.  What that means is we work together to figure out what is best for you."  (Let me preface this my saying he makes me laugh!) "You know, I've gained 1% of body fat this summer because I've been eating more burgers and drinking more beer.  It happens, it's called LIFE."  (1% body fat?  Hysterical, but I had to keep my face straight!) "This is what I want you do do: don't go crazy and stuff yourself with cake, just try to eat as healthy as possible most of the time, enjoy your weekends away with your husband and we are going to revisit this in September. Don't even track your food until after Labor Day if you don't want to.  Just do your best - you know what that is."

Besides the fact that he hunted me down when he didn't have to, that attitude right there is why I know I have found the right place for me as I move into this next stage of my life.  Maybe this new theory is more sustainable than what I have put myself through in the past.  I hope so!

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Tuesday Ten

1. Some of the gorgeous sunrise views I've had in the last couple of weeks on my morning run.

2. Mr. Helen and one of his coworkers/friends retired on June 30th.  His other coworkers put on a very nice buffet potluck with an "Aloha" theme.  They made the guys wear grass skirts and coconut/seashell bras.  It was so funny.  They gave them certificates of service and shadow boxes with butcher's knives in them.  A very nice send off.  Mr. Helen worked federal civil service for 32 years with 26 years being at this last place.

3. Speaking of retirement, I might be able to get used to him being retired while I still work.  The Saturday after he retired, I had a training appointment at 8 a.m., followed by having a demo for my part-time job.  I wrote a list of all the housework I wanted to get done that day and while I was at work, he texted me to say he'd done all of it except the dusting - he doesn't like to dust!  Wow!  Plus he has cooked dinner several times over the last 10 days.  The really funny thing though is how chatty he is when I get home.  He talks non-stop, which my ears are not used to.  I finally realized it's because he's now alone most of the day.  Let's just say we are adjusting!

4. Long time readers will remember this guy, even though you might not recognize him.  That's our nephew, who will be a freshman in high school this September!  We had him overnight a couple weeks ago and he and Mr. Helen went fishing.  This past week he flew by himself to Minnesota to meet up with some family to go to a cabin.  I sent this photo to his mom and she said, "that's one happy boy right there - a steak and a root beer, two of his favorite things."

5. We finally got a night on the patio, with the patio being fully set up.  Seems like it took forever this year what with our vacation happening at the beginning of June. My happy place.

6. First Caprese salad of the season.  I make it with homemade pesto rather than plain basil leaves.  I have two pots of basil growing on the patio specifically for pesto. This salad screams summer to me!

7. Another thing that screams summer?  When my day lilies bloom.  This year, one flower bloomed all by itself for a whole day before other flowers joined in.

8. I spent Independence Day alone at the beach because Mr. Helen wouldn't listen to me that we needed to go early.  (We have passes on both our cars and he generally moseys down there whenever he feels like it to meet me.) I left my house at 8:30 for what should have been a 15 minute drive and didn't sit down on the beach until 9:45.  He attempted to come at 10:00 but sat for an hour in traffic without moving so he turned around and went home. Turns out people had arrived and lined up at the beach gates at 5 in the morning and they estimated there were 13,000+ visitors that day - a record-setting crowd.  My whole city only has 28,000 people! Honestly, it really was too busy and I am sure next year we will make other plans.

9. When we were in St. Martin, Mr. Helen bought me a beautiful 25th anniversary ring.  He actually told me I could upgrade the 3-stone ring we bought on our 10th anniversary (I'd never had an engagement ring) but I told him no, it had too much sentimental value for me and that I'd rather choose something else. Unfortunately while there my fingers swelled and I couldn't get my 3-stone ring off.  I ended up using the dental floss trick to get it off and then couldn't wear any rings for over a week because my finger was so traumatized.  Mr. Helen and the jeweler we dealt with were very worried about me getting the ring on but I assured them that my finger would calm down once home and back into a normal routine.  And it did!  I love both these rings (and the memories that go with them) so much.

10. I had my follow up with the trainer/owner of the facility where I've been doing personal training.  I lost 2.5 lbs. of fat and gained 3 lbs. of muscle, which of course means my weight stayed the same.  He asked me what my goals were and I told him honestly that I want to lose weight, or in his lingo, lose fat.  I also said I know strength training people hate when that's said, but that I feel fairly fit - I mean there's always room for improvement - but what I really want is to be smaller.  To my surprise he actually responded positively. He also admitted he was quite surprised that I didn't lose more weight but was beginning to understand how stubborn my metabolism (damaged by hypothyroidism and age) actually is.  But then he stated that as long as I was willing to work with him and try different things, his goal is to get me to my goal and he wanted to continue to check in with me.  So, I've decided to do a one year membership to see if the things he wants to try with me food and exercise wise will get me results.  I also told him that if I'm in the same place in a year, that I am right now, I'd definitely have to re-evaluate my membership.  He agreed that was fair and honestly, I can't ask for more or better customer service than I'm getting!